Thursday, July 24, 2008
i started to think of you today again..maybe cause i was too free after skool...i really miss you...although i seemed to be fine and good without u in my life..im really not fine and good...although i say i dun bother about our friendship and im not ready for u to hurt me again....im juz putting up a strong front...i tot u knew...i tot u knew right from the beginning tat this friendship mattered alot to me..but when i tried to salvage it, you din help me....
all this while i have not spoken to you or seen you...ever since we had a cold war...i stopped going to nat also because of u...because i tot if i din see u for awhile i'll be ok..but no..its not ok...after these few mths...i admit i have been running away from my feelings..i've been pretending not to bother bout u...but the fact is i really miss you...(but tats not the only reason why i've not been going to nat...u shld noe i have other commitments as well)
it has been a few mths since i last cried because u hurt me ...but today..when i suddenly thought of u...i cried again....will there ever be a day i receive a call or sms from you...not regarding church matters...but juz a call or sms from a good friend? i really duno...i hope u'll be reading this and know that this post is about u...