Monday, June 16, 2008
today i read an email tat dear dear est sent...it really got me thinking....its a story entitled sand and stone..i duno how many of you have read this email before but here's how the story goes:
One day, 2 friends were walking in a desert and at some point, they had an argument and one friend slapped the other in the face. The one who was slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand,"today, my best friend slapped me in the face". They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one who had been slapped got stuck in a mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After he recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone,"today, my best friend saved my life". The friend who slapped and saved his best friend asked him,"after i hurt you, you wrote in the sand, after i saved u, u wrote on the stone. why?" The friend replied, "When someone hurts us, we shld write it down in sand, where winds of forgiveness can earse it away. But when someone does something good for us,we muz engrave it in stone where no wind can ever earse it."
yupyup..tats the story..it really got me thinking..cos these few months after Os...things with my friends hasen't been going too well for me....i noe its been some time since we last spoke and things started to change when i was doing my Os...and ppl always tell me to forgive and forget and try to move on or patch back this friendship...but...i've tried very hard..but everytime i tell myself to give u a second chance, either u disappoint me or u hurt me...and i noe many times u duno tat u're hurting me..cos u are not someone who is very sensitive to the feelings of others...i noe by saying this u'll be hurt..but im afraid the truth hurts..and im sure u noe it urself...u follow ur head when u make decisions, but i usually follow my heart...i trust my feelings more many times. cos maybe im different from you cos u have brains and im not as smart as you and all...but...after all these..i juz can't take it tat everything is alright between us. i mean im not ready to get hurt again. a few days ago..best friend told me to move on. i tink these few days i've made quite a good progress but now...after reading this...i really duno wat to do..i duno if i shld risk myself getting hurt again to try to patch up this friendship..but it seems tat whenever i try to make things better. it does get a tiny bit better juz for tat few min and after tat its back to square one again...so....i duno if i shld con'd to invest my time into this..argh....o wells..maybe i shld juz listen to best friend and not bother bout it le.....i guess..wats gone is gone le ba...
ok..so i conclude tat this story has got me thinking and i duno if wat i wrote on top made sense..but i guess....im not going to take the risk and i shall try to move on....=)