Sunday, July 08, 2007
hmm...1 week of O level Revision Programme (ORP) is finally over...there's still 2more weeks to prelims and I AM NOT PREPARED....i dun tink i'll do very well...i juz feel im slacking alot...i dun understand why i can't be like my other friends who are so hardworking and determined to do well...i guess they are focused and im not...im distracted and they are not...haiz...haiz...
this week has been a really tiring week for me...its torturing to go to skool...to do paper and review and paper and review...haiz...but i guess its juz for our good..i hope it will help me do better for Os and prelims...haiz
im feeling quite stress...there's juz so much more to rmb and study...and so little time..i duno la..i used to be able to take stress very well..but now...i find myself screaming at ppl when im tired and they irritate me..i dun want this ...i want to have the patience i had before....haiz..i guess im really stress la....sometimes i juz feel like going straight home from skool and not talk to anyone..i need my own private space...sometimes...when i reach home..i juz feel like locking myself up in the room...i find myself crying in the shower and at night quite often.....i tink im really stress...haiz....but when im with my friends..i juz keep all of those inside of me and not show it out....haiz....sobs..sobs..sobs...
ok..i shall stop here...ppl...please pray for me...tks...
Dear Lord...please help me to journey with me till the very end...please journey with me...help me have patience with my friends and family...help me to be focus and have the motivation and determination to study...let me not be easily distracted....amen.
i duno why everytime i see you talking to some girls i get jealous...is it because i like you?