Thursday, May 24, 2007
im feeling lousy this few days...many things happening...feeling quite emo...i duno what's happening to me....sigh..
hmm...lately..i've been having friendship problems..i really duno how to solve this problem..im already trying my best to use every opportunity to try and make things better...but now....i really duno...i really duno if its helping..i have abosutely no clue now..im at quite a lost now..i duno if wat im doing is right or now..sigh...
i juz dun understand why all the friendship problems tat i face seems like its all my fault...i juz can't take it anymore..i want things to get better...i dun wanna loose a very important friend to me...i know the previous post is my fault..but...im really sry..i hope u forgive me...i hope things can get better and be the same as before again..
i really cannot stand this cold war..and i dun want ur friendship with the others to be destroyed too...im really really sry...i've already tried my best..and im tired...im tired of all the tinking of solutions..i really hope things will work out right..
sometimes...i tink my friends in skool will be happier without me arnd...i tink u guys will be much happier..cos in the first place...i haven't known u guys for as long as u all know each other...wat if one day...i really juz leave u all on ur own..will u all be happier without me? i really duno this answer...sometimes..i feel i really dun belong...sigh...i juz feel tat......sigh..i duno how to explain..all i want is for our friendship to be good again...without so much tension and cold war...im sure we can talk things out de...haiz...i guess..im really tired of everything le..i really am...
haiz..maybe i shld juz let u all be happy and not bother u all...hmm..i tink u all have really helped me alot ...and wat have i done? nothing..but caused more trouble ...im sry...=(
i shall end here..
to my dear friend whom i've not been talking to (u know who u are):
i hope u'll forgive me..everyday when i go to skool..i really try to remain optimistic tat u'll talk to me...and tat things will be fine..but so far...i've not gotten wat i wished..and im really tired..i guess..i shld juz leave things as it is and let wat happens...happens...i hope this cold war will end..im sry for everything..really really sry...
to est and bec:
hey..tks for being there..sry if i've troubled u all too much...sry if i made things very difficult with all these tension and cold war..im really really sry..like i've said..u all have always been there for me..but....i've only created trouble for u all..im sry ...
to wee kie:
hey...my darling loves me alot can...who says my darling will listen to u...he always sticks out his tongue at u when he see u..haha..u dun teach my darling the wrong things hor...haha..my darling loves me the most..muahha..haha..lol