Monday, May 14, 2007
hello everyone...im back again...ok..my blog is still as dead..i guess no one ever comes here anymore...sigh..o wells..haha exams are over and we're starting to get back our results...results are not very good so far...all the horrible marks means....i can't stop dating my books every night...looks like i've got to con'd and work towards my A1...i must make sure this time...its not juz another high expectations...i hope i can achieve it for prelims and Os....
alright...a lot of things have happened lately....mother's day fundraising and lots of thoughts of mine..haha..o wells...yea..for mother's day fundraising...THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HELPED.....we reallly did a FANTASTIC job....hope you guys had fun...=) tks ppl
alright..in skool....i feel quite lonely at times...its like i suddenly feel so antisocial....hmm..maybe its juz cos im tired? i duno...its like...i have some close friends in skool...and in class..but now....i feel that these close friends are like not close friends anymore...i tink its only one or two of them...(PLEASE DUN MAKE ASSUMPTIONS AS TO WHO THE PPL OR PERSON IS!!!!!! I DUN WANT ANY MISUNDERSTANDINGS TO OCCUR) alright.i shall con'd...yea..so its like...i feel tat i can no longer confide in her/them cos alot of things i tell her/them....she/they will go arnd and tell another person....i used to be able to confide in tat persone/ppl...but now..i feel otherwise.....hmm..but i still have some wonderful friends..but i feel empty..i feel down tat we're not talking as much as we shld...it seems like there is a big big gap in between us..and we no longer have much to talk about..sigh...
hmm..ok..alright so now tat person/ppl...have found new friends and everytime i walk past them...i feel tat they are talking bad bout me...as in..u can feel it de la...its like when i walk past them...they like suddenly talk loudly bout sth when b4 tat they were like whispering...o wells..and yea...tat close friend/friends are like really ignoring me leh...and they/she dosen't tell me anything now..its like our conversations are all one liner...ever since tat person/grp of ppl got to know another person(her/their new found friend) we seldom talk...and their/her new found friend is also talking less to me....i duno leh...maybe its really cos i've changed like my good friend from church told me the other day though i dun really get wat she means when she explained....hmm..o wells
im really sad...i wanna cry le...=(...i mean..we're friends right..dun need to treat me like this de lor...hm..o wells..i guessed i've really changed in some way tat my friends may not like...hmm..o wells...its alright i guess? haven't i gotten used to the fact tat i have a few lesser friends than everyone else...sometimes i really feel left out...o wells..haven't i gotten used to tat too?!?!? ok..nvm...sobs sobs..=(
alright..i duno if those ppl/person im talking about will read this...but PLEASE DUN MAKE ASSUMPTIONS...i really dun want matters to get worst.....i type all these with tears flowing down..=( sobs sobs sobs
i shall stop here for now..pls tag ppl..tks