Friday, October 27, 2006
whee...ok..i really enjoyed my sec 3 life ya...tks to all my friends..u ppl really made this a really enjoyable year for me..tks ppl...ok..today..jes...isa..est..rau..going bowling..but im here at home..sobs..tats cause i can't go..(like der).o wells..there's still SENTOSA...!!!!!yuppieeeeeeeee
o wells, some stuffs has happened lately...out of which one which hurt me quite abit...hmm..ok..i shall not say wat it is la..but i shall juz state my feelings here...this only concerns one person so ya..hmm..dun worry my skool friends...it does not concern you :
hmm..ok we have been friends for 6 months already...but we have not been talking to each other..i dunno for wat reason..hmm..the first 3 months of our friendship went very well until many things started happening....some of which i admit is my fault la..but i have already apologized to you many many times..hmm..ok..however..i feel tat things are starting to get worst lately..especially since we stopped talking..i feel weird everytime u sign in and come online and we dun even say hi like we used to..sigh..o wells..i guessed im not fit to be ur friend ya..
hmm..in the past, we used to be able to sms each other...chat online...talk on the phone etc ..and all these was done as if we knew each other for a really really long time liao..but NO..we only knew each other for like 1 to 2 months then...sigh..u used to be very nice to me..u used to care about how i feel..u used to be able to spent time with me..juz to be there for me..but now everything is juz different..but i really treasured the times then ..i dunno if u did..but im sure it dosen't matter to u anymore..
hmm..nowadays..when i chat with u..all u do is to give me a one word answer...sigh.im juz trying to be friendly and nice and forget bout wat has happened in the past lor..but ur not allowing me to...are you?..all u do is to treat me like im invinsible..treat me like i dun exist..u juz treat me so coldly..o well..i guess ur life is much better if u din noe me at all ya? i noe tat im not impt to u..there are other PPL who are more impt to u..im a nobody to u...there are others whom u tink make better friends..
sigh..sobs sobs..sometimes i really wonder...do u really mean wat u say?...everytime i say sth like.." sigh..i feel so useless..i feel tat im drifting from my friends" then u will go," no la...hmm..i dunno y u ppl like to say ur drifting from each other..u noe my buddies and i..even though we dun talk often we still got tat sense of clossness" hmm..o wells..i guess this statement is only meant for ur buddies and not any other friend like me right?..juz say im right...cause i noe it..even if u dun say it..hmm..sometimes u will say '' dun worry la..i still treat u as my friend" ya right !!!!!!!!!!! i SOOOOOOO believe u can...as if u mean wat u say lildat...
sobs..sobs..did u noe tat many times i got scolded by my dad because I WAS TALKING TO U ON THE PHONE LATE AT NIGHT...?????????? i noe i din tell u this..i was juz being a nice friend..but i tink u did not appreciate it at all...i tink u took advantage of my kindness....did u noe tat it was because of u tat i began to quarrel with my parents and tat is y im not having a good relationship with them ??????? im sure u din noe tat...
ok..i noe tat many atimes i turned to u for help...tat is because i trust u..i look up to u..i feel tat u can give me some advice...but now..as i looked back..i tink i REGRETTED...sobs..sobs..this makes me really sad k?...all tat happened in the past..i enjoyed every single moment..although i din mean anything to u..!!!!!!!
sobs sobs....now..all u noe how to do is to hurt me..have u not hurt me enough????????????...have u not gained ur happiness everytime u hurt me last time....i know..u might say i bear grudges against u..but i was hurt really badly...and every now and then ..as i tink back...my heart hurts alot still..cause of the way u are treating me...
now, u will make time for everyone except me...u will be there to comfort anyone except me...u will offer to accompany anyone out if they are lonely..everyone except me...u will chat to anyone except me...u will say hi to anyone when u meet them..except me...AM I TAT INVINSIDBLE?....AN I TAT NICE TO BE TREATED THIS WAY????.....i juz dun understand y u muz treat me like this...hmm..do u noe tat everytime i go to ur blog..i get hurt?????...ur sooo nice to all ur friends except me..u seemed to have forgotton about me...sobs..sobs..
sobs..o wells..i shan't con'd if not i'll get really emotional...sobs..sobs..hmm..im not expecting anyting from u right now...i juz wanna be friends with u again...hmm..i juz wish for u not to hurt me anymore..hmm..i dun tink u'll be reading this but anyway..if u ever read it..I HOPE U NOE TAT IM REFERING TO U.!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok..now tat im done with tat...(btw..everything is in white..so ya..)..sigh...ok..nvm..shall not tink so much le..ppl please tag k??...help me make my blog more lively k...tks..
to whoever im refering to above:
to jes, est, rau, isa, bec:
jes: tks for always being there for me..juz to listen to me.. and tks for cheering me up and encouraging me to move on..=)
est: tks for adding joy to the atmosphere and tks for being so optimistic..always encouraging all of us..=)
rau: yul is so cute!!!!! haha..ok..tks for always being so happy and cheerful all the time..it really makes my day happy =)...haha
isa and bec: tks for all the crap...it keeps me awake during lessons...haha...tks for all te beautiful memories we shared throughout the year...