Saturday, July 01, 2006
hmm..lets see..i've been listening to the song "we are one" almost the whole day today..i find this song very meaningful...we also sang it at the tripartite camp...there is a line in the song which says:"there is so much that we don't understand, and the only thing we know is things don't always go the way we planned" i find tat this sentence is very true for me...i mean like say now...somethings i hope will happen din happen and sometimes certain matters only go the opposite direction from wat we want them to be..(if u noe wat i mean)...hmm..i mean ok la...some ppl will say God has his plans and all..i know tat la...but...hmm...i dunno..i juz sort of confused now..cause i noe a certain mattter has not been turning out right..and im quite disappointed and sad la...hmm..the point is i have not been through this kind of thing la...so ya..hmm..ok..i dun tink i shall elaborate liao..i mean i will really like to..but hmm..nvm i guess...
ok..the rest of the post will be dedicated to a certain person in particular...i shall not mention who la..(if u noe who u are...u noe it...if u dun...its ok):
ok...i noe tat we haven't really been talking...i mean not even sms-ing..sometimes its juz a very simple sms...i mean u may find me irritating and all...cause i keep sms-ing u when im bored and all..im sry...im sry if i sms u when u din want me to...or if u feel tat im disturbing u too much..im sry...even when i chat with u...its not the way we used to chat with each other..i mean i noe sometimes i've been kinda cold at times...but...i dunno why la..i mean to me sometimes the conversation started because if we dun chat its like either u are trying to avoid me or vice versa..but i really dun wanna our friendship to be this way..i mean ok la...it may be my fault tat i keep trying to hint sth to u ...and all.im sry...but these days i feel tat u r like sort of trying not to be so close liao..as in our friendship la..i mean like it all happened all of a sudden...and somehow i feel tat its kinda weird la..as in we used to be good friends and i dun wish our friendship to turn out this way..(if u noe wat i mean)...erm..hmm..ok la...i understand tat sometimes u are tired and all and dun really wish to chat or sms tat day ...tats fine with me...but i realised tat its after some blog thing and all tat it all became quite cold...ok..im quite sure tat u will be reading this and all so ya..hmm...even if u dunno tat this part of the post is for u...its ok..it really is fine with me...ok...although i dun really u know u for a long time...i guess we are sort of good friends liao...but seriously lor..i mean i juz find it quite cold these days so ya...hmm...i mean like i realized the way we chat is like different from usual and i dunno y...hmm...maybe its juz me and all..but o wells...i noe tat wat i want to happen won't happen so ya..its ok about tat ...hmm...ok..i've said this in one of my post before...sometimes i juz find myself sitting by my phone and waiting for ur msg or ur call...hmm...im not sure if u tink this way la...i mean erm...i dunno if u tink tat by not really sms-ing and chatting with me then i won't really think about u and all...but if tats how u tink..i got to tell u...im really really sry...but this will only make me think more so ya...hmm..im sry if sometimes u ask me about my blog post and all and i dun really noe how to explain it to u....its not tat i dun trust u or want to keep sth from u..its juz tat it will seem wrong to tell it to u(if u noe wat i mean)...i tink u will get the idea of why im sad le ...(as mentioned in the previous post)...hmm..sometimes i juz sit and tink how u have been and all...i really care for u...(if u noe wat i mean...dun get it wrong)...i hope things will get better...take care ya...=)
ok...i said wat i have been wanting to tell u le..so ya..erm..i hope tat u dun get angry if u have read tat...i mean if i have misunderstood u .,..please correct me..i mean tats juz how i feel..im sry if after u read tat u feel hurt...hmm..i really really sry for all tat but i seriously hope tat u will correct me if im wrong and have misunderstood u...im sry if i've been irritating...
hmm..ok..ppl...i guess tats all i have to say for now...here is the lyrics to the song"we are one"
As you go through life you'll see
But you'll see every day
If there's so much I must be
Even those who are gone
We are one, you and I
We are one . . .
ok...ppl shall update soon..in the meantime..please tag my blog!!! help make my blog lively again..tks..=)