Sunday, July 09, 2006
hmm ok..NDP yesterday was so cool...it was family day..as in parents, friends and relatives of participants could come so ya...hmm..it was so cool...so high la..hmm..ok..i tink the choir did a great job except the tamil song a little screwed up..but overall it was good...can't wait for the NE show next week...
ok..other than tat skool has been ok la..juz tat i dunno y im rather distracted from my work...i dunno wat on earth im tinking about la..i mean its the second semester liao..and i shld be used to teacher's teaching style and all already...but in class i seem quite distracted at times...as in..ya...i really dunno wats with me lor...i mean..most of the time i look as if im paying attention but my mind is drifting somewhere else...if not then im juz stoning..so ya..hmm..shit man..i mean i tink i better wake up liao lor..
hmm..in the first semester...i seemed to be more self-motivated..but now...i dunno wat happened to me,...im so not motivated and its like i used to have the will-power to stay up late and revise my work and all..but now..things are rather different...i can't seem to do tat...and ya..in skool im quite slack lor...and tats not me lor..i also dunno wats me now...hmm..i juz find tat all my other classmates are really working hard and all..but i dunno wats with me..i mean i want to do well..but i juz can't seem to concentrate...argh!!!!...sometimes i reach home...take out my books...and i juz tell myself...shit man i dunno wat the teacher taught about this topic..so ya..hmm..sometimes i concentrate and really pay attention during lessons..but somehow..in the middle of the lesson..i'll either start stoning or get very very distracted...i really dunno wats with me...maybe im juz tinking too much..maybe i juz have too much on my mind...
i remember my piano teacher saying this once..she said tat ppl who are good in music are usually slower in skool work and not so good at it..but ppl who are good in skool work are usually not tat good in music...hmm..i really dunno how true this is..but i noe ppl who are execptions so ya...i was juz wondering...im not good at music..neither am i good in my skool work..so wat m i good at...hmm..sometimes i juz feel very useless...i mean in my cca i dun make a good committee member or section leader...hmm..in church i dun tink i make a good senior to my juniors....hmm..maybe scolding myself will help....
germaine...its the second semester already...u din do very well for first semester either..i tink its time u pull up ur socks...u studied very hard for first semester...but results din show tat u studied and now u wanna do better..u muz spend more time studying and dun use the com so often...muz pay attention during lessons and all...hmm...i tink u are really stupid to make the decision to let urself loose focus during lessons...sigh..u dun wanna dissppoint ur parents or ur seniors at the end of the year so i tink u really seriously shld pull up ur socks...
hmm..ok..i tink im done with tat...but im really disppointed with myself lor..i really dunno to do now...hmm...ok...sigh..i hope this week will be better...i tink i better concentrate on my work lor..oh man..sometimes i juz feel very useless..sobs..sobs...sobs..
ok..i tink i'll stop here for now...ppl please tag my blog!!! tks
to isa:
jie im sry in skool u have to tolerate my whining...im really sry..sry if during chem tat day i was sort of ignoring u ...or if sometimes i get really cranky and all...sry ya..hah.a..but still haha...in skool muz keep me awake k?..haha..
to my juniors who have read this:
please do not learn from me..this is really bad attitude..im sry i've been a good role model and senior..really sry...
i miss you...i can't stop tinking of u...