hmm..ok..i feel tat some ppl are actually trying to avoid me lor. (if u noe who u are...but i dun tink so...please correct me if i've misunderstood u or have made the wrong conclusion..and if i have..im really sry..this is juz my feelings).shall not mention who la..but ya..i mean if like say my good friend tries to avoid me i will like start tinking of all the possible reasons...and tat means i will keep tinking of that person also lor..so ya..i mean this is not the first time i feel tat my friend is avoiding me lor..i have jrs in the past who were avoiding me...but o wells.hmm..some ppl might be thinking why i say this la..but its juz kinda obvious..cause u see...like say ur good friend has always been there for u...and all of a sudden..everything juz turns cold...sms-es are not replied...phone calls not answered..hmm..sometimes i juz feel empty without all these lor..as in most of the time u can sms or call someone when ur bored and all..but now..u juz feel like calling..but..u dun feel its right..and for this very particular incident..it all happen overnight..tats y..im kinda sad though..i mean this person has been my good friend lor..as in i treat tat person as my good friend la..someone tat i can talk to..but now.hmm..im juz tinking about it lor..and tat person too..hmm..but i dun blame tat person la..cause i noe i can be really really irritating at times and ya..i feel bad la sometims..cause i've disturbed this person quite a no. of times liao...and to tat person..im sry..(if u noe who u r..if u dunno..its also fine...its ok..cause after all its not ur fault)..hmm..ok..i tink this happens cause i deserve it...hmm..ok..i tink i shld try not to "hold on"(if u noe wat i mean) to my friends to dearly..cause i've realised after this happen..i feel really sad and empty ...as in..it feels as if its all gone ..juz gone overnight...hmm..ok..nvm..no one is to be blame...cause i tink its my fault lor..hmm....i dunno if its juz me or wat la..but ya..and hmm..ok..i tink its juz my fault la...and ya..so ya..hmm....i guess its juz me...hmm..ok..i shall not think so much..but juz tinking why ppl are avoiding me is bad enough...as in i will keep tinking of the person lor...so ya..hiya..i guess.....sometimes i tink im juz not the suitable kind of friend though..hmm..ok..i tink im juz not a really good friend to have...o wells...hmm..ok...i tink i shall not elaborate on this matter liao..if u ppl are really dying to noe more..can always ask me..then i'll see if i can tell u more lor...
hmm..ok..back to my life:
saturday
ok..went to grandma's hse very early...left super late...hmm..ok..reached there at arnd 11.45..ate lunch ...then went to neary library to do homework...and yay!!! finished all my homework..i like spend like 4hrs in the library doing homework ...haha...i love tat .library...so quiet....haha..can study properly..ok...later mum came and ask me to go back to grandma's hse...ok..cousins came at almost7pm...so ya..they all left le..then we waited for dad to fetch us home....so ya...wait until 10 plus...sian la..so ya..watch tv lor...until dad came...had fun though
Sunday
went to holy trinity church...saw fr.bosco...chat with him for quite some time..then went back to church for lectors meeting ...then went for YC meeting....after tat mum and dad came to fetch me ..went with them so singapore expo...so sian..hah.a.so ya...din really eat lunch ..haha..juz had a curry puff..then reached home at arnd 9pm....haha...was super tired la...so ya..slept kinda early last nite...haha...
to isa:
sry i din call u back yesterday..hah.a..cause i cannot use the phone liao..then i also very sleepy..sry sry...
hmm..ok..tats all i have to say...nth much though...haha...ok...tripartite camp is tomoro!!!! can't wait...i hope it will be as fun as before...
ok..i shall stop here...please feel free to tag on my blog...take care ppl
i miss you
