Firstly, i will like to begin by apologizing to my dear friends, becky, isa and jes....im really sry if me and nic kept arguing while doing the chem project...it was juz some misunderstanding between the two of us...im really sry if i had made things very difficult for all of u...im really sry...i can explain y tat happened...apparently, i tink its like my fault la..cause everyting screwed up last min and i was like kinda disappointed and stress...so ya..i lost my temper ...im really sry..i noe i shld not use this as an excuse but...its juz to explain..i promise this won't happen again....im really sry..and to nic.....i heard tat u tot im angry with u...im really sry if i've been acting kinda cold towards u..its the same reason as i said earlier...im really sorry for all the hurt i've cause...i dunno y..but the 2 of us are like having cold war...im really sry..hope to start talking to u soon...
ok..tis week is a a really trying week...went to innova junior college to present the chem project..was fine.. but the preparation was horrible...i shall not elaborate...if u want to noe..juz ask me...haha..anyway....after all the days my grp stayed back till like 6 plus almost everyday...its finally over...anyway..through this...i realize tat i cannot really work well with some of my friends...i tink its juz a problem with me i have to correct.....
anyway..2 days before the presentation many changes had to be made...cause everyting screwed up..not a single indicator we made was working...and we had to reorganize the script and powerpoint...juz felt like crying when i was in skool la...i mean its like so disappointing..
ok..now i have to catch up with my studies..seriously lagging...and mid-year exam is like juz around the corner...now im really starting to worry alot...i dunno y..but i can't seem to pay attention in class... my mind keeps drifting away n i tink of everyting but wat the teacher is talking about..im like so dead la....argh!!!!...on top of tat ..im like freaking out n my mind will go like sort of blank when i see the test paper..i dunno y...is it cause im tinking too much?..is it cause im not prepared?..is it cause 've too much on my mind...???? i dunno....how i wish i knew....
i juz realised...tat i've so much to catch up on and so little time left...so many ppl i noe have started mugging for mid-year...and my...i haven't even started...im like the lazy pig....oh dear...tis is like the worst ting la...cause i cannot stand being lazy...maybe i shld spend more time studying...and put in more effort in paying attention in class.....I REALLY DUNNO WAT TO DO NOW!!!! im like so lost and confused...with so much on my mind
i cannot even seem to do things right...i cannot even assign readers for weekday masses properly...where had all my responsibility go to? where had all my initative go to? i really dunno...now i cannot even make my juniors listen to me...i mean its ok if they dun look up to me...but i hope they do...at least some of them...i mean...i cannot even get a msg across to them properly...during meeting..how? how? how?....im like so caught up with everyting...i juz dun understand y i have so much to do?....i cannot take it anymore...
now its like for every test....im like failing..how? my whole class is so clever...i juz feel like crying it all out...i juz feel so empty...i dunno y...help!!!!....im juz like a lost soul..wondering arnd aimlessly lost in the jungle where all the trees look the same...i juz dun feel like the germaine i used to be..the carefree me...i juz feel like im taking everyting too seriously...m i really taking tings too seriously?...i really dunno...i juz dun feel like myself anymore...how i juz wish i knew the ans to all the questions...how i wish..
i really juz feel like crying it all out....i juz want to cry..tats all i feel like doing now...i cnanot take it anymore....aaaahhh!!!!!!!....i dunno wat to say liao...i feel like ..... i dunno...i really dunno..,...
i juz can't get my thoughts right...i juz cannot relax...i dunno y...but ya..
im like damn sad these days...my tests marks are all so disppointing...everyone has so high expectations of me..i cannot afford to not meet these expectations...but i really dunno if i can do it..
i really dunno wat to say now...im speechless..all i noe is...i have alot on my mind...and all i want to do is to cry everyting out....hmm...i juz want to talk to someone about it...but again..not many ppl will understand...its ok..i'll get over it on my own
ok..i'll stop here for now...pls feel free to tag my blog...
