Saturday, December 31, 2005
i feel tat this year has been a really meaningful year, compared to the previous years....
i've been through many ups and downs this year....and i feel that my persepective of church has also changed from boring to fun and exciting...(clare will noe wat im talking about)
now, church has a different meaning for me because i feel tat now im more involved and also because of events tat the youth have taken part in...such as...tripartite camp...JB trip and the other events youth council has organised....
me joining the youth council has allowed me to have the opportunity to meet new friends and learn to work as a group and with different ppl....most of the times not within my own clique of friends...
this year...i also joined the music ministry...i've also got to noe many more ppl ...haha...and got to noe some ppl even better....(wow !! seems like i have alot of friends now)
i really learnt alot from my seniors in church and now i truely agree when ppl say tat church is where u find ur true friends...now tat i noe many more friends in church...i feel tat there are ppl there for u when u need them ...and they will always be there for u .....
ok...let me talk about skool now...
in skool i've been through many difficult times....especially after my end of year exams started and the results and all...
ok..i shall not go into much detail but i shall briefly explain...
hmm...lets juz say i got very stressed up while preparing for the exams as my grades will determine if i can qualify to take the subjects i wanted...i wanted to take pure sci la...
ok...so when the final year exam results were out...i was very upset and disappointed with my reults..( some friends of mine will understand this better ).....
ok...at tat point of time...i felt tat i was all alone...until i was talking to clare about this and i realised tat hey...someone actually cares....cause my parents were scolding me ...and i juz told them tat im happy and all cause i improved...but inside me i was like tats totally not true....
so ya...do u ppl see the link..??
as in the connection between church and skool..
erm..the reason y i onli talk to church seniors and friends is because i feel tat they are much better then ppl from my skool...(no offence la)...but tats how i feel...
i really look up to my seniors in church...i tink they are very good role models...
i also feel tat my parents have granted me more freedom...like from this year onwards...
haha...tats y im able to hang out with my church friends..like ...at nite..instead of always in the day...haha..
ok ppl....im really very sorry for the times i always put up a front ...like when im not happy about about sth...i'll juz say tat im fine when u all ask me...
sry bout tat...but i noe tat deep down inside u ....u noe tat sth is wrong with me...
im sorry for not telling u all the truth....sry ...
however...thank you for all ur concern...
to some of my church friends (i tink i dun need to mention names...u all read the msg u shld noe who u r liao...if u wanna noe can ask me online) :
thank you for all the fun and laughter u ppl brought ...tks for always being there for me...thank you for brightening up my day most of the time..thank you for chatting with me online...although sometimes the conversation may be quite dry and not crappy or interesting....i really enjoyed the times we spent together...(online and in church and outside of church)..haha..
to jeslyn and isabelle:
tks to u ppl for all the happiness u brought...sorry if i always look stress or stone is skool....sorry for not replying some of ur sms-es.....and ya..i tink all of us have been busy during the hols...haven't go out together..