hmm....i've been quite busy these days...tats y i have not blogged for 8 days...
sunday....no lectors meeting so went home after mass...then came back at 2pm for YC meeting...it was quite long...and its the last meeting for this year....i tink i will not explain wat happened during the meeting....at nite came again for choir practice for midnight mass....
yesterday went for music ministry meeting....they had the christmas jam ting.....after meeting stayed in the hall to talk and be sociable...haha...then left at 10 plus...zach and the others went to 401 ...but trudy and i din go...cause we were sort of tired and i haven't done my theory hw...haha..
today...nth much happen...stayed home the whole day...going for piano later at 6.30...meeting my friend at 6 later...i dun feel like going...cause today is not lesson...its for the christmas celebration....argh!!!!....
anyway...i received a msg from one of my juniors from lectors....it really sort of disturbed me....she said..." hey germaine...yesterday and today no one read for evenong mass"...
when i read this msg.....i wasn't shocked at all but i was tinking...y do these ppl treat readings so lightly and dun bother to rmb tat they are reading...these ppl dun even have a sense of responsibility.....
i was very upset about this as this is not the first time...this kind of thing has happenend many times and im sick and tired of getting all this shit...i noe they are my juniors but i really dunno how to get the msg across to them...
ppl often tell me...enjoy wat u do...and do it without complaining....i can no longer take it anymore...tats y im complaing.....im juz so lost and confussed...there's juz so much on my mind...i really dunno wat to do with junior lectors....i noe tat im not even the president...but i cannot bare to sit back and relax when junior lectors is in such a mess....
someone in particular(i shall not mention name)...noes tat im not the president of the jrs....but she still keeps coming to me when sth goes wrong ....i really cannot take it anymore..
i have run out of ideas on wat to do with the kids during meeting...even the seniors in the jrs....have no idea wat to do...they are also totally lost like me....im sick and tired getting the shit from ppl...its not tat i no longer bother anymore....its juz tat i cannot take it...im lost and confusssed...i juz have so much on my mind...i really dunno wat to do now....especially with my jrs...
i feel tat its my fault tat the kids have no direction at all...i dunno y ..but i tink tat im the one to be blamed...its all my fault tat i dunno how to lead my jrs in the right direction...
i juz dunno wat to do now...seriously...argh!!! i cannot take it anymore....even another person....she doesn't even bother about the kids ...does not even answer my question when i ask her sth...(as in her ans is totally out of point and not helping la)..
i dunno y..but i feel tat i've not been a good senior...and i dun tink my jrs shld even bother to look up to me as one...cause i've not done my job properly...
im really lost and confussed and worried ....and i juz have so much on my mind..
i shall stop here for now...sry if my post does not sound pleasent..
To those ppl having exams..especially...sam and zach:
all the best for ur exams ...jia you k....it will be over very soon ya....jia you ...i noe u ppl can do it..juz do ur best and let God do the rest....smile always ppl..=)
