Friday, September 07, 2012
idk why...these days i've been feeling so uneasy....idk why...rawr maybe cos i miss bf too much...rawr...seems like when he's busy he kinda dun really bother about me..and i dun like it but then again, can't blame him..hes a chiongster mugger...argh...gt to get used to him being busy when im free...duno y our timings always dun match. every time im free, he's busy...o wells..arghhh...emozzzzz =(
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
It has been exactly 1 mth since i posted. loosing the feel to post, but...i guess i just need somewhere to let it out. rawr. during this 1 mth, lots of news came to me. good and bad..i kinda lost my motivation to work and study for some reason. i tot after my results come out favourable, i would be more motivated, but, sadly, thats not the case. maybe its cos of the changes i need to adapt to in the future thats hindering me. it may nt exactly be a bad thing, but im just resistant to changes. haiz..idk..i need to get my act tgt again, but i just have no motivation. seeing bf try so hard, i also knw i have to try hard, but, why is it so difficultt!?!? y is it so difficult to get it back again? =( am i really suited for this job? is this really for me? y am i nt performing well enough? rawr
haiz..outside of work...some things have been bugging me, but i knw those things can't be rushed. sometimes i wish the ppl arnd me will understand also. i really don't need extra pressure on this la..haiz..i gt to stop emoing and be happy...if nt life will be dreadful...
haiz...somehow...this dosen't feel right? the feeling is different...why?!?
Saturday, July 28, 2012
its been a long time since i spent a whole saturday at home...lonely i guess..but managed to do abit of revision. rawr...miss my bf so much! rawr...
mixed feelings abt some stuffs lately... dilemma...hard decisions to make...and horrible after taste from that particular event...haiz...its been almost a week and the thought of it still feels so horrible...haiz o wells..guess its sth i have to deal with on my own cos no one else can help me...i just hope i can erase that horrible memory..or rather, rewind time, so that i could change my actions then that wouldn't have happened and i won't be feeling the after effect. o wells...
but, whatever it is, i'm really thankful the wonderful friends who have been there for me to listen to me complain and give me advise. thanks alot
Friday, July 06, 2012
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Haizz...when this convo comes out..the topic is changed so quickly..4 yrs n counting..yes I miss my piano..haizz when will I stop feeling emo about it?? Sucks!! I miss staying in hougang...I miss the friends n ppl there...I miss gg to nativity...bleaahhh o wells 4 yrs flew by.. I thought I'm ok with it alr..but no!! I miss being able to meet my friends in juz 10min or so..like how bf can now..I miss duets with Maureen ...I wanna play piano again...haizz will I get the chance to start it again soon?? :(